Life sucks the life out of me sometimes when I experience or see painful situations, but I don’t stay down, I get up and keep moving forward. Leaving me feeling raw.
At The Hospital
Yesterday evening I was at a hospital waiting for some CT scan results. Suddenly, I heard a man suddenly yell at the top of his lungs, “Why did you tell me that?!” Then he just started screaming and screaming and crying hysterically. I peered out into the hall and saw several nurses and police officers running in and out of his room. The screaming continued for about 15-20 minutes, and I couldn’t understand what he was saying most of the time. At one point, as loud as he could, he kept screaming over and over, “It hurts! It hurts!”
I saw older men standing with the Dallas police officers around his room in slacks and jackets who looked like detectives. My imagination went wild. Did he shoot someone or did he get shot? Did he have an accident while doing something illegal and someone died as a result? His loud voice and apparent anger penetrated deep into my thoughts. There was something so sad and tragic about it, the pain. Then suddenly he went silent; they had sedated him.
When I arrived home I remember unlocking the deadbolt in my condo door while his screams echoed in my ears. I felt so drained and sad; I felt as if life had been sucked right out of me. Hospitals are hard places to hang out at, and I try avoiding them as often as possible. It is in those deafening moments that I am reminded once again how fragile life is; how it can be here one moment, and in the next moment gone.
I love photographing life for that very reason. It’s vast but yet fragile.